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Monday, October 03, 2005
You and 17, Me
i have so much to say today..i bet u guys can never tell how i'm feelin right now..it's indescribable..really..sometimes when celebrities accept snowballs during all kinds of awards shows and when their tears are flowin down or something, the first thing in my mind, is that they're just acting it out..those arent for real i tell myself..but right now..i'm really feeling it..i am so so so excited and caressively touched..you'll never ever know how i'm feeling man..this is so real..i've never expected this to be happening..i mean com'on..mE?
and now, i believe..
i dont wanna boast or anything..just wanna come clean, i mean there's no use for me to lie right..today is the 3rd of october..it means a whole lot to me..the previous night, i was feeling so so downcasted, it was like..in the first place i thought i was so blessed with love, and it couldnt be real..that a lot of people wanted to celebrate with me..and i rejected..i feel so sorry for them..right here, if you're reading this, please accept my a.p.o.l.o.g.y.! and then suddenly it was like, there were just something which barricaded my all-time trusted friends to celebrate with me..i mean, all right, i dont wish to say any sort of mushy bushy stuffs here..that all my friends mean alot to me..and you!! dont look away, you know who you are, please dont you ever think you're nothing to me, you're just special..i sometimes acted like a fool..well..not a fool..just someone who cares..who would ask to do anything to make it up to you.. it was all from the deep core of my heart..everybody should be treated in a pampered way; the way i want it from you too...you guys mean alot to me, frankly i doubted my place in your hearts..because i never thought a girl who has only be friends with you guys for like..not even 2 years..would have such excessive care and support..and everything! this is like a dream for me..i thought nothing good would come to me..
last night, i was frankly, afraid that no one would actually remember today.. i mean, just the sincerity and the thought that counts actually, i'd feel great with just a greeting from you, but you guys are jsut awesome man..i felt like i was God's pet to be receiving so many wishes and telephone calls and sms-es..and what's more unexpected, is today's celebration..
once i got up, looked at the cellphone..the messages were like whoa..a bomb..i was really happy and surprised!! so many of em actually remembers my day..it was so surreal.. i couldnt believe it...i suddenly felt like i was so blessed! long since i felt like that..well, after that someone drove all the way from home to give me a gift, it was really nice of him..hehe..a piggy..haha..thanky! and then here's the climax..can you believe the climax of the day started at 10 in the morning itself?? omg..my friends actually home-made a cheesecake for me!!! i was so shocked when i saw my name on it!! it was reallly sweeet of em..and the taste of cheesecake still lingers in my mind..heek heek..we couldnt give up the opportunity to take pictures..yeah..under the sun, but who cares..haha..and then we proceeded to erm..red boxx! haha..all of us rocked down the room(eh?) man..hahha..sort of sorry to have monopolised the mic..for..well..hahha..you know it! but hopefully you guys had fun in there too..i had a control on my tears! hehe..we then hopped in to coffee bean, my favourite place..hehhe..we had some talk..well..*secret secret* haha...hehhe all of us didnt wanna leave! lolz..but everything has to come to an end right, we had to go..and walked s-l-o-w-ly to the carpark basement..haha..guess what we did in there..*beep beep* NOT dirty things all right..hahha..sweethearts sang birthday song for ME!!! and then a solo from my lovely eun..which i got to choose on my own, what a pick..hehe..
well you never know, today is like receiving surprises and surprises..haha..never end..of course i do LOVE it!!!! hehe, i was droved home..in one piece..haha..and i had to really leave now..after greeting farewells..got into my own room..to calm myself down..haha..i dont know why..just sort of like..shivering? nervous? over-excited? too hyperr? hhaha..received a call later and was asked to reach my hand on my letterbox..haha..i then rushed down for it, omg, there was a yellow card..haha..OMG! that was what i was staring at..hesitating whether to buy it and keep it..hehhe..AND NOW i can OWN it!!! you can never tell how thrilled i am!!! i am soooo eXciTeD!!!
later after that, received a message from muacky-bro..hehe..saying my present is on top of his CK box..haha..it was Mitch Albom's Tuesdays with Morrie!!!! wow...fantastic man..i wanted to read that book for so long but didnt happen to buy it on my own..hehe..muaxx and thankie!! before i could even express my happiness, here comes a little gift from my primarymate, hehe..it's really sweet of her to have walked a long distance to my place and gave it to me..thanky..hehhe..
Going for dinner with family later..^^
***
just as i thought i could have more, i stopped myself to think. i dont ask for more coz i'm already contented. i really appreciate all the things that you guys have done to me..all the time spent to make this real for me..i could not ask for more..=p
**- /-\ ) ) \/ 3 R + - ) /-\ \/ +0 ( @ R I\/I**
thanks once again for willing to spend so much time on this!!muahz!!!
hope all of you enjoyed yourselves today too!!
i turned 17 today, finally. this is not something i yearn for, fearing to become 17 instead, though now i think it's not as bad as i thought anyway... i'll continue to take the challenges ahead from the almighty-God.=p
and now, i believe..
i dont wanna boast or anything..just wanna come clean, i mean there's no use for me to lie right..today is the 3rd of october..it means a whole lot to me..the previous night, i was feeling so so downcasted, it was like..in the first place i thought i was so blessed with love, and it couldnt be real..that a lot of people wanted to celebrate with me..and i rejected..i feel so sorry for them..right here, if you're reading this, please accept my a.p.o.l.o.g.y.! and then suddenly it was like, there were just something which barricaded my all-time trusted friends to celebrate with me..i mean, all right, i dont wish to say any sort of mushy bushy stuffs here..that all my friends mean alot to me..and you!! dont look away, you know who you are, please dont you ever think you're nothing to me, you're just special..i sometimes acted like a fool..well..not a fool..just someone who cares..who would ask to do anything to make it up to you.. it was all from the deep core of my heart..everybody should be treated in a pampered way; the way i want it from you too...you guys mean alot to me, frankly i doubted my place in your hearts..because i never thought a girl who has only be friends with you guys for like..not even 2 years..would have such excessive care and support..and everything! this is like a dream for me..i thought nothing good would come to me..
last night, i was frankly, afraid that no one would actually remember today.. i mean, just the sincerity and the thought that counts actually, i'd feel great with just a greeting from you, but you guys are jsut awesome man..i felt like i was God's pet to be receiving so many wishes and telephone calls and sms-es..and what's more unexpected, is today's celebration..
once i got up, looked at the cellphone..the messages were like whoa..a bomb..i was really happy and surprised!! so many of em actually remembers my day..it was so surreal.. i couldnt believe it...i suddenly felt like i was so blessed! long since i felt like that..well, after that someone drove all the way from home to give me a gift, it was really nice of him..hehe..a piggy..haha..thanky! and then here's the climax..can you believe the climax of the day started at 10 in the morning itself?? omg..my friends actually home-made a cheesecake for me!!! i was so shocked when i saw my name on it!! it was reallly sweeet of em..and the taste of cheesecake still lingers in my mind..heek heek..we couldnt give up the opportunity to take pictures..yeah..under the sun, but who cares..haha..and then we proceeded to erm..red boxx! haha..all of us rocked down the room(eh?) man..hahha..sort of sorry to have monopolised the mic..for..well..hahha..you know it! but hopefully you guys had fun in there too..i had a control on my tears! hehe..we then hopped in to coffee bean, my favourite place..hehhe..we had some talk..well..*secret secret* haha...hehhe all of us didnt wanna leave! lolz..but everything has to come to an end right, we had to go..and walked s-l-o-w-ly to the carpark basement..haha..guess what we did in there..*beep beep* NOT dirty things all right..hahha..sweethearts sang birthday song for ME!!! and then a solo from my lovely eun..which i got to choose on my own, what a pick..hehe..
well you never know, today is like receiving surprises and surprises..haha..never end..of course i do LOVE it!!!! hehe, i was droved home..in one piece..haha..and i had to really leave now..after greeting farewells..got into my own room..to calm myself down..haha..i dont know why..just sort of like..shivering? nervous? over-excited? too hyperr? hhaha..received a call later and was asked to reach my hand on my letterbox..haha..i then rushed down for it, omg, there was a yellow card..haha..OMG! that was what i was staring at..hesitating whether to buy it and keep it..hehhe..AND NOW i can OWN it!!! you can never tell how thrilled i am!!! i am soooo eXciTeD!!!
later after that, received a message from muacky-bro..hehe..saying my present is on top of his CK box..haha..it was Mitch Albom's Tuesdays with Morrie!!!! wow...fantastic man..i wanted to read that book for so long but didnt happen to buy it on my own..hehe..muaxx and thankie!! before i could even express my happiness, here comes a little gift from my primarymate, hehe..it's really sweet of her to have walked a long distance to my place and gave it to me..thanky..hehhe..
Going for dinner with family later..^^
***
just as i thought i could have more, i stopped myself to think. i dont ask for more coz i'm already contented. i really appreciate all the things that you guys have done to me..all the time spent to make this real for me..i could not ask for more..=p
**- /-\ ) ) \/ 3 R + - ) /-\ \/ +0 ( @ R I\/I**
thanks once again for willing to spend so much time on this!!muahz!!!
hope all of you enjoyed yourselves today too!!
i turned 17 today, finally. this is not something i yearn for, fearing to become 17 instead, though now i think it's not as bad as i thought anyway... i'll continue to take the challenges ahead from the almighty-God.=p
Friday, September 30, 2005
Pierced
wanted to blog few days ago actually but maybe i wasnt destined to do so, this blogger and the unstable connection that i've been having since well? weeks ago? months ago? are driving me nuts..which precisely hint you the reason why i seldom blog these days..and of course undeniably i'm indeed doing my procrastination quite frequent..XD it has to stop though as you know, examnination is drawing nearer and nearer..feel like closing my left eye, to not to care about it. what about my right eye, does this question come to your mind? lolz if i close both of my eyes, meaning i'm totally being ignorant, hehe and then i'd be guilty for myself, blek!
alrighty, there's this saying which goes and i know you are familiar with it, no planning is planning to fail..any idea? i'm sure you do. well, come to think of it, most of the time things just dont work out the way you want it to be, whether it's better or worse. it's just not what you want. then again, it happens on me, and honestly most of em are the latter one. isnt it saddening? by the same token, when there's something of your interest is going on and you'll surely happen to be on tenterhooks, wondering what on earth is going to happen next, could it be this or that and bla bla, dont you think it's not necessary? fearing for the worst is somewhat a feeling you wouldnt wanna have, honestly, right? instead, when you dont plan, for once and for all, things just happen. and then when it happens, it's then only time for you to either be excited about it or fall into the suicidal trap..yeah i'm exaggerating..hehe..it might sound a little risky, you know to risk your life or something but think on the other side, my peers, with this simple plan, you dont have to even be worried before the thing happens, aint it better? arent we encouraged to live happily..everyday?
here's the thing, they say if you dont plan for something, you're actually planning to risk your future away..that's right, at times. my view is that planning is good but what if the outcome isnt pleasant? you're gonna be downcasted for a few days then? you'll be upset if the outcome is no good because you've spent time planning for it. likewise, if you dont plan, things will not necessary turn out to be bad. if it so happens to be a failure, then you'll regret but you wont be that downcasted as to be compared to the former, meaning to plan..am i right? this is one of the many paradoxes that we face, they both cant exist at the same time..so deal with it, to plan, or not?
my ears are pierced. my fate is destined. do i have to spend time worrying about my past and/or future? your answer for me is No. yet can you tell me, you never worried about it?
alrighty, there's this saying which goes and i know you are familiar with it, no planning is planning to fail..any idea? i'm sure you do. well, come to think of it, most of the time things just dont work out the way you want it to be, whether it's better or worse. it's just not what you want. then again, it happens on me, and honestly most of em are the latter one. isnt it saddening? by the same token, when there's something of your interest is going on and you'll surely happen to be on tenterhooks, wondering what on earth is going to happen next, could it be this or that and bla bla, dont you think it's not necessary? fearing for the worst is somewhat a feeling you wouldnt wanna have, honestly, right? instead, when you dont plan, for once and for all, things just happen. and then when it happens, it's then only time for you to either be excited about it or fall into the suicidal trap..yeah i'm exaggerating..hehe..it might sound a little risky, you know to risk your life or something but think on the other side, my peers, with this simple plan, you dont have to even be worried before the thing happens, aint it better? arent we encouraged to live happily..everyday?
here's the thing, they say if you dont plan for something, you're actually planning to risk your future away..that's right, at times. my view is that planning is good but what if the outcome isnt pleasant? you're gonna be downcasted for a few days then? you'll be upset if the outcome is no good because you've spent time planning for it. likewise, if you dont plan, things will not necessary turn out to be bad. if it so happens to be a failure, then you'll regret but you wont be that downcasted as to be compared to the former, meaning to plan..am i right? this is one of the many paradoxes that we face, they both cant exist at the same time..so deal with it, to plan, or not?
my ears are pierced. my fate is destined. do i have to spend time worrying about my past and/or future? your answer for me is No. yet can you tell me, you never worried about it?
Friday, September 23, 2005
Faith
well, blogging is a total fun..when you're writing about something that has happened, you're actually talking to yourself..as in you would somewhat feel more comfortable..and sometimes even realise something from what you've just written, ya know whether you were doing anything wrong or said something bad to someone..it's just pleasant, having to perceive what you have done wrong or right..precisely just a fulfillment about yourself..
faith, i sometimes am not sure whether to believe somebody's words..it might be coming out from a totally clowny expression on the face or rather, a solemn one..neither one is safe to be trusted on eh..well, humans wear on masks..i'm quite sure of that people, there's no one living in this world who is actually totally of himself, if this person ever exists, i wonder how wide is his social circle..well okay, sometimes cracking up white lies can be good, you might not be aware that white lie is also considered as a lie, isnt it a sin? it does no harm (uh-huh) but because it does no harm, do you then think it's right to tell lies? haha, right to be wrong can be well-applied to this eh..
whenever it reaches a knot, i usually want to handle it my way..all right, ya have to listen to both sides if your friends or family are having arguments because it would be so unfair for both sides; without giving them a single chance to do their own explanations..agree? sometimes though, chances are just not there for you to clear things up the way you wanted it to..what i am trying to say is that everybody has their prerogatives to do anything..on their own..it all depends whether you want it to..it's just something of your own again you see..
it has got nothing to do with faith eh? sorry dear readers i often get carried away and keep turning circles round and round to finally getting back to the main point i was wanting to voice out on..haha..faith oh faith..i'm not sure if i should believe somebody's adulations or are those words for real? you know it's hard to comprehend what on earth is actually in a person's mind..
well you might wanna say that's life..and life's unpredictable eh?? alrighty please forgive me of my bovine stupidity of not being able to differentiate someone else's words..or is there any otherwise?
faith, i sometimes am not sure whether to believe somebody's words..it might be coming out from a totally clowny expression on the face or rather, a solemn one..neither one is safe to be trusted on eh..well, humans wear on masks..i'm quite sure of that people, there's no one living in this world who is actually totally of himself, if this person ever exists, i wonder how wide is his social circle..well okay, sometimes cracking up white lies can be good, you might not be aware that white lie is also considered as a lie, isnt it a sin? it does no harm (uh-huh) but because it does no harm, do you then think it's right to tell lies? haha, right to be wrong can be well-applied to this eh..
whenever it reaches a knot, i usually want to handle it my way..all right, ya have to listen to both sides if your friends or family are having arguments because it would be so unfair for both sides; without giving them a single chance to do their own explanations..agree? sometimes though, chances are just not there for you to clear things up the way you wanted it to..what i am trying to say is that everybody has their prerogatives to do anything..on their own..it all depends whether you want it to..it's just something of your own again you see..
it has got nothing to do with faith eh? sorry dear readers i often get carried away and keep turning circles round and round to finally getting back to the main point i was wanting to voice out on..haha..faith oh faith..i'm not sure if i should believe somebody's adulations or are those words for real? you know it's hard to comprehend what on earth is actually in a person's mind..
well you might wanna say that's life..and life's unpredictable eh?? alrighty please forgive me of my bovine stupidity of not being able to differentiate someone else's words..or is there any otherwise?
No Idea man..
have ya ever come across a moment whereby you feel depressed..broken all of a sudden? well..i guess i face it almost everyday..ya know i can be laughing like i'm in heaven with ya right now and when something strikes me even without myself even realising it the next moment, i can be damn curseful..going moody all my way..i dont understand why..why do i have this kinda so-called moodswings, perhaps? or is there something wrong inside? argh..
sometimes being somebody of my age, i wonder if there's actually something which could be perfectly done by me, myself..com'on if there's something please remind me about it..as we would be pressuring ourselves on every fridays calling out to hell just to accomplish the tasks that are given out by teachers and the chief reason of it is just to save ourselves from the drudgery of having to eventually get it all done by the weekend..dont you think it's a little too much..ya know, arent we supposed to be living life to its fullest and forget about all the 'hardwork' we have to take?? sigh talking about life, i'm just clueless..you see, i sometimes go for tuition which somehow somewhat seems to be an interminable ninety minutes..aint it dull?
i bloodily yearn for the answer..
sometimes being somebody of my age, i wonder if there's actually something which could be perfectly done by me, myself..com'on if there's something please remind me about it..as we would be pressuring ourselves on every fridays calling out to hell just to accomplish the tasks that are given out by teachers and the chief reason of it is just to save ourselves from the drudgery of having to eventually get it all done by the weekend..dont you think it's a little too much..ya know, arent we supposed to be living life to its fullest and forget about all the 'hardwork' we have to take?? sigh talking about life, i'm just clueless..you see, i sometimes go for tuition which somehow somewhat seems to be an interminable ninety minutes..aint it dull?
i bloodily yearn for the answer..
Wednesday, September 21, 2005
Fragile Heart
just as i was about to release myself from this hassle, someone just took it out on me..saying as if i do not deserve any heck frm 'em..and yes i am sick of hearing those white lies..so you think it's good for me..well i certainly am prepared to yell it out loud straight to your face how selfish you are, and how ya dont make any VIP spaces deep down my heart, you're just a nobody....as if i'm really gonna do this.. i, as usual, just do not have the guts to do some kinda shoutings and yellings..especially when i think twice it's just not worth it, for someone like you, dude? better to say, i'm just not willing to scratch for scars for such person like you..
in occasions you're to blame for the bluntness you're blessed with and give the credits to whom who has been giving you everything....well, do bear in mind that you sometimes get things which you dont really need it and on the other hand, when you think you deserve something else, it's just not yours..eventually your will to get it turns into hatred..and later on, everything will be messed up..human beings only struggle for their needs and are undoubtly greedy, it's so blatant to see that sometimes we dont really need to have those not-necessary fracas...it's crazy, isnt it..people survive for nothing..if it's not the combat between you and i then this world is filled with colours between he and i..or whatsoever..what's the exact point of it? however far you are, you're still a person who strives for a living..just like anyone of us..nothing special..the only thing that makes it special is you, whether you can poke a unique side of you..
stop it carm, you're going out of your mind! if there's a special song to fix this problem i'd sing it everyday..
in occasions you're to blame for the bluntness you're blessed with and give the credits to whom who has been giving you everything....well, do bear in mind that you sometimes get things which you dont really need it and on the other hand, when you think you deserve something else, it's just not yours..eventually your will to get it turns into hatred..and later on, everything will be messed up..human beings only struggle for their needs and are undoubtly greedy, it's so blatant to see that sometimes we dont really need to have those not-necessary fracas...it's crazy, isnt it..people survive for nothing..if it's not the combat between you and i then this world is filled with colours between he and i..or whatsoever..what's the exact point of it? however far you are, you're still a person who strives for a living..just like anyone of us..nothing special..the only thing that makes it special is you, whether you can poke a unique side of you..
stop it carm, you're going out of your mind! if there's a special song to fix this problem i'd sing it everyday..
Thursday, September 08, 2005
Ice-Cream Day!
so there's this somebody by the name of, wenlong, haha..requested to have this kinda title..coz the previous ones were hehe, i admit tht, were kinda depressing..too solemn i guess..u know when you're too into something, you kinda feel sad and down..i dont know why, or maybe it only happens on me..
today's title..is IceCream Day..any surprises? well i didnt eat ice cream just now..i had a slice of white chocolate cake instead..all right, thanks to my friends for that..and coincidently today's my lil bro's birthday..i promised him i'll sing him 50cent's InDaClub...and a kiss on the ChEeK..just for him! i dont know why he wants a kiss from me, haha, same goes to dad..i wonder if my elder brother would want a kiss from me...jet, huh? how about it? lolz..
actually i ate icecream yesterday with..haha..whole family except my mother..coz she has diabetics..aww..i pray hard i didnt get it in the near future..coz it's reaaally depressing..u know, you ought to have to eat some sweetening stuffs to lighten yourself at times, yet once you're infected with this contagious disease..all i can say is that i'm just sorry for ya.. you have to cut down on those kinda food..and your happy days will be less..*pray hard*
funny, today's the very start n the very beginning of my examination and i'm celebrating it..for god's sake, i'm not going school tomorrow..oh hey, i'm just making a wise choice..haha..stick to the thought of me being lazy..coz i'm used to it..haha..to myself i suppose? to some people, i'm hardworking though..but i'd rather you assuming i'm a lazy person coz i'm not too lazy, not too hardworking..teehee...
so here goes the guy thing again, i dont know how to deal with it this time, i'll just let time be the judge..should it be fated, then it is..nothing much to be worried about eh..
gosh, i guess this ice-cream-day title has to come to an end...while i'm blogging, i'm chatting with one of my classmates...just got to know that she has to buy outside food everyday while i can enjoy my mama's dishes everyday!..almost everyday at least...i'm feeling so bad that sometimes i kinda complain my mama's dish isnt salty enough..isnt spicy enough..and so on..and so on!!what's happening??!! why is there to feel that i'm so useless all of a sudden.. carm, you should do something..argh, i guess there's nothing much i could do..sigh..hopefully this girl i know is really happy with her life, that's what she said to me..well, i dont wish to elaborate more on her parents..just that they really do love her..sometimes situation just pushes us a lil too hard..but that's life i know..sigh..
no angel..
i appreciate everything in life...i really do..and have a pleasant ice-cream day, everyone! oh by the way, happy birthday to everyone who's blowing candles today, but of course one special wish from a sister to her brother..happy birthday, ant (he prefers to being called this way, hehe)! well, i know though he wont check out my blog, but it's just a little something from me, hehe..
today's title..is IceCream Day..any surprises? well i didnt eat ice cream just now..i had a slice of white chocolate cake instead..all right, thanks to my friends for that..and coincidently today's my lil bro's birthday..i promised him i'll sing him 50cent's InDaClub...and a kiss on the ChEeK..just for him! i dont know why he wants a kiss from me, haha, same goes to dad..i wonder if my elder brother would want a kiss from me...jet, huh? how about it? lolz..
actually i ate icecream yesterday with..haha..whole family except my mother..coz she has diabetics..aww..i pray hard i didnt get it in the near future..coz it's reaaally depressing..u know, you ought to have to eat some sweetening stuffs to lighten yourself at times, yet once you're infected with this contagious disease..all i can say is that i'm just sorry for ya.. you have to cut down on those kinda food..and your happy days will be less..*pray hard*
funny, today's the very start n the very beginning of my examination and i'm celebrating it..for god's sake, i'm not going school tomorrow..oh hey, i'm just making a wise choice..haha..stick to the thought of me being lazy..coz i'm used to it..haha..to myself i suppose? to some people, i'm hardworking though..but i'd rather you assuming i'm a lazy person coz i'm not too lazy, not too hardworking..teehee...
so here goes the guy thing again, i dont know how to deal with it this time, i'll just let time be the judge..should it be fated, then it is..nothing much to be worried about eh..
gosh, i guess this ice-cream-day title has to come to an end...while i'm blogging, i'm chatting with one of my classmates...just got to know that she has to buy outside food everyday while i can enjoy my mama's dishes everyday!..almost everyday at least...i'm feeling so bad that sometimes i kinda complain my mama's dish isnt salty enough..isnt spicy enough..and so on..and so on!!what's happening??!! why is there to feel that i'm so useless all of a sudden.. carm, you should do something..argh, i guess there's nothing much i could do..sigh..hopefully this girl i know is really happy with her life, that's what she said to me..well, i dont wish to elaborate more on her parents..just that they really do love her..sometimes situation just pushes us a lil too hard..but that's life i know..sigh..
no angel..
i appreciate everything in life...i really do..and have a pleasant ice-cream day, everyone! oh by the way, happy birthday to everyone who's blowing candles today, but of course one special wish from a sister to her brother..happy birthday, ant (he prefers to being called this way, hehe)! well, i know though he wont check out my blog, but it's just a little something from me, hehe..
Wednesday, August 31, 2005
Independence Day
Independence Day
by Martina McBride.
Well, she seemed alright by dawn's early light
Though she looked a little worried and weak
She tried to pretend he wasn't drinkin' again
But Daddy left the proof on her cheek
And I was only eight years old that summer
And I always seemed to be in the way
So I took myself down to the fair in town
On Independence Day
Well, word gets around in a small, small town
They said, he was a dangerous man
But Mama was proud, and she stood her ground
She knew she was on the losin' end
Some folks whispered, some folks talked
But everybody looked the other way
And when time ran out, there was no one about
On Independence Day
Let freedom ring
Let the white dove sing
Let the whole world know that today
Is a day of a reckoning
Let the weak be strong
Let the right be wrong
Roll the stone away
Let the guilty pay
It's Independence Day
Well, she lit up the sky that Fourth of July
By the time that the firemen came
They just put out the flames and took down some names
And sent me to the county home
Now I ain't sayin' it's right, or it's wrong
But maybe it's the only way
Talk about your revolution
It's Independence Day
Roll the stone away
It's Independence Day
***
Wahai kawan karibku, hari inilah hari kemerdekaan..marilah sambut bersama-sama! Inilah kali pertama kutulis dalam bahasa melayu dalam lamanku ni..harap maaf jikalau bahasaku tidak terbilang..walau bagaimanapun kuingin menyampaikan perasaanku sekarang yang tidak beberapa puas hati dengan sambutan pada tahun ini..kuhanyalah peruk di rumah untuk membaca buku *ketawa terbahak-bahak* dan pada masa yang sama bersembang dengan kawan-kawanku melalui msn..=p khabarnya bunga api yang terdapat di klcc juga tidak sebaik yang diimpi-impikan..baiklah kuberhenti menulis sekarang disebabkan sebab-sebab tertentu yang terpendam..bahasaku ni amatlah merisaukan diriku kerana pada hujung tahun ni kuperlulah menduduki peperiksaan yang disebut spm..haraplah dapat keputusan yang cemerlang..tentulah termasuk kawan-kawanku..
sebelum kuberundur marilah kita bersatu hati menyeru MERDEKA! MERDEKA! MERDEKA!~
blek!
by Martina McBride.
Well, she seemed alright by dawn's early light
Though she looked a little worried and weak
She tried to pretend he wasn't drinkin' again
But Daddy left the proof on her cheek
And I was only eight years old that summer
And I always seemed to be in the way
So I took myself down to the fair in town
On Independence Day
Well, word gets around in a small, small town
They said, he was a dangerous man
But Mama was proud, and she stood her ground
She knew she was on the losin' end
Some folks whispered, some folks talked
But everybody looked the other way
And when time ran out, there was no one about
On Independence Day
Let freedom ring
Let the white dove sing
Let the whole world know that today
Is a day of a reckoning
Let the weak be strong
Let the right be wrong
Roll the stone away
Let the guilty pay
It's Independence Day
Well, she lit up the sky that Fourth of July
By the time that the firemen came
They just put out the flames and took down some names
And sent me to the county home
Now I ain't sayin' it's right, or it's wrong
But maybe it's the only way
Talk about your revolution
It's Independence Day
Roll the stone away
It's Independence Day
***
Wahai kawan karibku, hari inilah hari kemerdekaan..marilah sambut bersama-sama! Inilah kali pertama kutulis dalam bahasa melayu dalam lamanku ni..harap maaf jikalau bahasaku tidak terbilang..walau bagaimanapun kuingin menyampaikan perasaanku sekarang yang tidak beberapa puas hati dengan sambutan pada tahun ini..kuhanyalah peruk di rumah untuk membaca buku *ketawa terbahak-bahak* dan pada masa yang sama bersembang dengan kawan-kawanku melalui msn..=p khabarnya bunga api yang terdapat di klcc juga tidak sebaik yang diimpi-impikan..baiklah kuberhenti menulis sekarang disebabkan sebab-sebab tertentu yang terpendam..bahasaku ni amatlah merisaukan diriku kerana pada hujung tahun ni kuperlulah menduduki peperiksaan yang disebut spm..haraplah dapat keputusan yang cemerlang..tentulah termasuk kawan-kawanku..
sebelum kuberundur marilah kita bersatu hati menyeru MERDEKA! MERDEKA! MERDEKA!~
blek!
Friday, August 26, 2005
Okay
all right..see i was woken up by an sms..duh..i was rolling on bed hesitating whether it was really time for me to get up..sigh guesss what, i'm blogging right here, right now at the moment....of course i did all the hygienic wash..haha..i'm all full of perfume scent..now..haha..well, a lil' exaggerated but who cares..you're not dropping by to taste me now eh..haha..
i cant believe it's almost time to say goodbye to this one-week holidays..really i dont want to..if only you could stay a lil' longer with a please-stay from me..yeah..if only!! obviously it's not gonna happen..sigh..i havent really started my revision yet..i'm really sorta sick of myself..for wasting too much time on doing something.. well to make things worse, that something is actually nothing..i dont know what's happening inside..but i'll try hard to make it right..
wow, i cant believe i'm in a good mood today! haha..going for a barbeque today..pool party i suppose?? lolz..if you excuse me, i would like to say goodbye..haha..i know i know..i should stop crapping..*zipped*
i cant believe it's almost time to say goodbye to this one-week holidays..really i dont want to..if only you could stay a lil' longer with a please-stay from me..yeah..if only!! obviously it's not gonna happen..sigh..i havent really started my revision yet..i'm really sorta sick of myself..for wasting too much time on doing something.. well to make things worse, that something is actually nothing..i dont know what's happening inside..but i'll try hard to make it right..
wow, i cant believe i'm in a good mood today! haha..going for a barbeque today..pool party i suppose?? lolz..if you excuse me, i would like to say goodbye..haha..i know i know..i should stop crapping..*zipped*
Tuesday, August 23, 2005
There's This Thing I Didnt Know
so here i am passing on the baton..well...credits to jet who passed this baton to me but am really sorry that i only get to do it now...that's actually because i havent been on for so long..well..laziness..whtta do..all right..
Total volume of music files on my PC:
approximately 9 GB..
The last CD i bought:
mandy moore, the best of
Song playing right now:
you're beautiful by james blunt
5 songs I listen to a lot, or that mean a lot to me:
fix you. november rain. an honest mistake. inside your heaven. chariot.
Five people to whom i'm passing the baton:
anthony. lienyiny. jteoh. zhenhui. elaine.
i guess i'm just doing this to de-bored myself...useless weih?
Total volume of music files on my PC:
approximately 9 GB..
The last CD i bought:
mandy moore, the best of
Song playing right now:
you're beautiful by james blunt
5 songs I listen to a lot, or that mean a lot to me:
fix you. november rain. an honest mistake. inside your heaven. chariot.
Five people to whom i'm passing the baton:
anthony. lienyiny. jteoh. zhenhui. elaine.
i guess i'm just doing this to de-bored myself...useless weih?
Sunday, July 17, 2005
Comfort
again here, feeling so slack.. dont feel like moving you know..apparently i'm listening to westlife's album..for once i was their die-hard fan...for once, too, i thought their music were mediocre..right now, a lot of memories traced back from the olden days..actually i must not deny that they actually accompanied me throughout the days when i was having my ups and downs..
how i wish i could turn back the time..but no regrets in life..never will i let myself fall into a condition when everything is hopeless ever again..yeah..you got it right..i have actually gone through a period when the whole world just seemed so grey to me..everything was shattered so badly..i dreaded to stay on that place *trying not to use foul language* but i just couldnt help..it was a total loneliness..there were always someone who cared but you know, i kinda behaved in an ignorant way.. am really sorry for the ones who cared and thankful of course..
why do we have to face failures in life..why are there barricades ahead stopping me from reaching my goal...why cant i just lead a simple life...why does everyone being so ignorant..why do i not have a witty mind..why am i so dumb..why am i so unlucky...why why why and why!
the little voice in my head is telling me that there are always the good things in life..
will they ever walk out on me??
how i wish i could turn back the time..but no regrets in life..never will i let myself fall into a condition when everything is hopeless ever again..yeah..you got it right..i have actually gone through a period when the whole world just seemed so grey to me..everything was shattered so badly..i dreaded to stay on that place *trying not to use foul language* but i just couldnt help..it was a total loneliness..there were always someone who cared but you know, i kinda behaved in an ignorant way.. am really sorry for the ones who cared and thankful of course..
why do we have to face failures in life..why are there barricades ahead stopping me from reaching my goal...why cant i just lead a simple life...why does everyone being so ignorant..why do i not have a witty mind..why am i so dumb..why am i so unlucky...why why why and why!
the little voice in my head is telling me that there are always the good things in life..
will they ever walk out on me??
Wednesday, July 13, 2005
Heartstrong
out of the blue just feel like blogging again..surprisingly today is wednesday and it's kinda strange because ever since some time ago i refused to blog during weekdays or rather schooling days..let's just say today's special..nah..none special occasion in particular..perhaps my heart is taking me to a new direction, a new pathway and here i come, again!
i am getting rid of these blues... it would be the umpteenth time for me to saying that i am turning over a new leaf.. a reborn life and i'm still alive, thank god for this..an official reincarnation i hope and i want it deeply from the bottom of my heart..really..i yearn for my heart to be alive again...starting anew..because a new day has come!
my head's lost but i'm heartstrong!!
i am getting rid of these blues... it would be the umpteenth time for me to saying that i am turning over a new leaf.. a reborn life and i'm still alive, thank god for this..an official reincarnation i hope and i want it deeply from the bottom of my heart..really..i yearn for my heart to be alive again...starting anew..because a new day has come!
my head's lost but i'm heartstrong!!
Friday, July 08, 2005
Broken
actually there's nothing much for me to blog about, i just wanna post something here..you can call it passion.. you know, me blogging my heart out..it's all true and genuine and real facts.. i would never lie to my own diary or whatever you call it.. i dont know why, i'm so numb..i'm so moody..things just dont go my way..everything is destined to be, i'll just have to face it and live my life to its fullest...i must pamper myself..who knows what's gonna happen to me in a second.. i might be gone.. i might be making my way to knock on this sort of paranormal door.. of course i will not think of doing some idiotic mistakes and you know what i mean..i have a lot more things that i have not accomplished yet.. a lot! somehow i feel extremely down-cast. i have no idea what stikes me but i know there's somehing wrong.. i just cant express it in words..only that kinda feeling..
there was this terrorist attack in london yesterday, i bet everyone has already heard of it, or rather, even saw the video online or the actual attack which was telecast live yesterday on tv.. i missed it and i'm feeling left out because everyone around me seem to have already watched it..
sometimes i just cant make it on my own..
there was this terrorist attack in london yesterday, i bet everyone has already heard of it, or rather, even saw the video online or the actual attack which was telecast live yesterday on tv.. i missed it and i'm feeling left out because everyone around me seem to have already watched it..
sometimes i just cant make it on my own..
Friday, July 01, 2005
Tasks
it's another week closer to Heaven.. with that pendulum swings second by second, my heart seems to skip another beat.. man it kinda pressures me..oh no, it does pressure me.. everybody is talking about the spm now, and i'm still nowhere to be found in this barren empty space i'm spinning.. anyone please stop me.. for your information, my addmaths tasks have already exceeded the due date man.. never will be done..sigh!!
i am a slacker but i seriously dont think i'm lazy.. am i? shit..
i am a slacker but i seriously dont think i'm lazy.. am i? shit..
Sunday, June 26, 2005
Yahoo!
what a great day i have!! thks!! to everyone and You staring up above, whoever or whatever it is or you are, i am thankful!!
first up i went to school to collect my report book, it was cool.. thanks for my sejarah teacher, mr vejayan, who gave me such big motivation and talked so much good things about me in front of my dad..perhaps those are true..so excited..
and then..got back home and dressed myself up in a rush for the VI's Installation cum International Understanding day.. it was yet again, cool! especially the Danny Gan Project, it was way awesome man!! keep it up yo~ and if i get it right, the Floaters, it was awesome too; they performed well, again if i'm not mistaken, The Bravery's and Pearl Jam's..cool thing!! haha..alrighty, then it was like..the sketch, *laugh out loud* i dont like sketch seriously, but i guess they did a great job coz it actually got the human beings around me laughing like nobody's business..hehe..once again, their refreshment was sponsored by Dunkin Donuts...so..u get it eh..yummy!! hehe..
okayz, i got back right then by daddy's car..haha..and rushed to grandmama's place for her celebration..birthday party i mean..cool man...we took darn lots of pictures..and all the things that most of the parties do, we did it! go figure.. well, this time is a slight different, coz it aint anymore chocolate banana or tiramisu, it's icecream cake this time, *burpp* the 7up gas was like eww, hehe..okok, back to my icecream cake, wow! brilliant and thanks for adding few kgs for me..reeaally appreciate that!! LOL!
pictures are right up! by the way, happy birthday, grandmama!!
first up i went to school to collect my report book, it was cool.. thanks for my sejarah teacher, mr vejayan, who gave me such big motivation and talked so much good things about me in front of my dad..perhaps those are true..so excited..
and then..got back home and dressed myself up in a rush for the VI's Installation cum International Understanding day.. it was yet again, cool! especially the Danny Gan Project, it was way awesome man!! keep it up yo~ and if i get it right, the Floaters, it was awesome too; they performed well, again if i'm not mistaken, The Bravery's and Pearl Jam's..cool thing!! haha..alrighty, then it was like..the sketch, *laugh out loud* i dont like sketch seriously, but i guess they did a great job coz it actually got the human beings around me laughing like nobody's business..hehe..once again, their refreshment was sponsored by Dunkin Donuts...so..u get it eh..yummy!! hehe..
okayz, i got back right then by daddy's car..haha..and rushed to grandmama's place for her celebration..birthday party i mean..cool man...we took darn lots of pictures..and all the things that most of the parties do, we did it! go figure.. well, this time is a slight different, coz it aint anymore chocolate banana or tiramisu, it's icecream cake this time, *burpp* the 7up gas was like eww, hehe..okok, back to my icecream cake, wow! brilliant and thanks for adding few kgs for me..reeaally appreciate that!! LOL!
pictures are right up! by the way, happy birthday, grandmama!!
Thursday, June 23, 2005
Hmm
oh, i was only told today that i got third place in the inter-class debate..not as excited as i thought i should be though..
Tuesday, June 21, 2005
Congrats!
yeah today's tuesday! haha..so what's up for today? if you are one of my readers in the previous posts, i bet you already have something in mind..about what should be happened or rather, held by now..haha, yupz! you got it damn right, i had my interclass-debate at school today.. hell yeah, it's finally over! phew!
the title of the debate: money is everything. i'm one of the opposition team's members, which is more to my own point of view. i never think that money is, ever everything! it does entertain us by providing us luxuries. we do enjoy the pleasures that can be obtained with the exchange of money, money is, undoubtly, almost everything.. so much that we almost think that money can buy happiness. all right, let's not talk about it, everything has come to a conclusion, hehe.. i'm glad that the debate went on unbelievably awesome, it was really competitive.. i'm contented, partly because i've gained experiences, again.. my passion for debate has arose consciously..hehe.. i wonder if they would be any debates going on in the future.. hopefully i could take part..
personally i think, money is not everything but it does influence our daily routines.. i dont care what other people say, i only think that yeah, it's all about fate and destiny. we are destined to be who we are and what sort of person we are now and of course, money? if you have the ability, i'm sure you could get a well-paid job and a high salary i would say.. com'on, it's about fate; 99% of perspiration and 1% of aspiration eh?
i believe in karma, really.. everything is destined to be.. why fret over things that might or might not happen? or worse still, already happened? do you not think it's too much? and totally ludicrous.. go figure..
all right, so do you want the result? haha, did i mention that i lost in the debate?? hehe.. somehow, dont be upset about it, my dearly comrades.. we've made it emotionally instead... be good, okay? =p
the title of the debate: money is everything. i'm one of the opposition team's members, which is more to my own point of view. i never think that money is, ever everything! it does entertain us by providing us luxuries. we do enjoy the pleasures that can be obtained with the exchange of money, money is, undoubtly, almost everything.. so much that we almost think that money can buy happiness. all right, let's not talk about it, everything has come to a conclusion, hehe.. i'm glad that the debate went on unbelievably awesome, it was really competitive.. i'm contented, partly because i've gained experiences, again.. my passion for debate has arose consciously..hehe.. i wonder if they would be any debates going on in the future.. hopefully i could take part..
personally i think, money is not everything but it does influence our daily routines.. i dont care what other people say, i only think that yeah, it's all about fate and destiny. we are destined to be who we are and what sort of person we are now and of course, money? if you have the ability, i'm sure you could get a well-paid job and a high salary i would say.. com'on, it's about fate; 99% of perspiration and 1% of aspiration eh?
i believe in karma, really.. everything is destined to be.. why fret over things that might or might not happen? or worse still, already happened? do you not think it's too much? and totally ludicrous.. go figure..
all right, so do you want the result? haha, did i mention that i lost in the debate?? hehe.. somehow, dont be upset about it, my dearly comrades.. we've made it emotionally instead... be good, okay? =p
Friday, June 17, 2005
Fate
i've done everything i should, but things just dont seem to go my way, somehow i wont give up and strive my best for the most anticipated examination, spm! i have to stand up as a normal student; it's not that i can have the time-machine with me, so that i could turn back the time.. and even if i do, i will never do that..
im glad that i am not randomly selected for the National Service camp, just yet. fate controls, i am not reluctant to go if ever i am chosen though..
by the way, an interclass-debate competition will be held on next tuesday, wish me luck!
experience is a good teacher, but She sends in terrific bills.i no longer wanna say anything as it would turn out gribberish if i dont take action. i just wish to say, He hasnt been treating me well ever since the day i was taught to crawl... scars will remain, so do my feelings.
im glad that i am not randomly selected for the National Service camp, just yet. fate controls, i am not reluctant to go if ever i am chosen though..
by the way, an interclass-debate competition will be held on next tuesday, wish me luck!
Saturday, June 11, 2005
Feel the Vibe!!
well i went out yesterday with my exclassmates, my buddies, i hope.. it was really fun i must say.. the only reason i'm only writing this now is actually because of the time-being, i didnt feel like blogging yesterday and i'm sorry..(to whom?=p) i was really dead worn out; woke up at 8 in the morning and prepared myself to tuition, got back home and prepared for the outing(yahoo!), and took off..
sometimes i really think i take quite long to dress myself up and i just do not know why haha!! i try to be dressed as soon as possible each time, but it'll at least take one and a half hours, maybe it's short for you but i think it's quite abit of wasting the given time we have, im working on it, haha to be able to manage my time well, else really, everything has to be rescheduled.. okay, back to the topic, i was late yesterday but neither one of them has arrived, haha!! com'on, they had transportation difficulties and it was always fine with me coz i could shop for the first round myself.. teehee!!
all right, i do not wish to mention everything in here because i know it will remain in my memories and you, my dear reader, might get a lil bored haha..yeah, we caught a movie,The Interpreter, it was a really brilliant, magnificent movie.. i strongly recommend it to ya, hehe i got a lil emotional but luckily nobody noticed it, haha!!
we met some friends there and crapped a lil while..then went down to Yoshinoya for few bits; some even bought ice-blended mocha..auntie anne's..and stuffs..we had a great conversation over there.. late after that, the guys left us and they were only 4 of us girls sitting there, went on for the innermosts..it was just making me feel like, jeez, not feeling good, that's it..haha.. coz we talked about stuffs..which is close to the future..karma..yeah.. that's unbelievable, isnt it??
i got back at around 9.30pm.. and something really happened.. for your information, something actually happened before this, which im quite aware of, the former happening (haha!!) was like..haha..crappy for me (asking for my number-lah).. nah i'm all confused now.. hopefully it'll reach a conclusion soon, i mean the latter one.. hehe, i really dont know what i want.. just ignore this part if you dont get it.. i only wish to voice it out.. BUT! if u do get it, any opinions are welcome, but mostly for those i've told.. the closer ones..and the one who's involved.. haha..
sometimes i really think i take quite long to dress myself up and i just do not know why haha!! i try to be dressed as soon as possible each time, but it'll at least take one and a half hours, maybe it's short for you but i think it's quite abit of wasting the given time we have, im working on it, haha to be able to manage my time well, else really, everything has to be rescheduled.. okay, back to the topic, i was late yesterday but neither one of them has arrived, haha!! com'on, they had transportation difficulties and it was always fine with me coz i could shop for the first round myself.. teehee!!
all right, i do not wish to mention everything in here because i know it will remain in my memories and you, my dear reader, might get a lil bored haha..yeah, we caught a movie,The Interpreter, it was a really brilliant, magnificent movie.. i strongly recommend it to ya, hehe i got a lil emotional but luckily nobody noticed it, haha!!
we met some friends there and crapped a lil while..then went down to Yoshinoya for few bits; some even bought ice-blended mocha..auntie anne's..and stuffs..we had a great conversation over there.. late after that, the guys left us and they were only 4 of us girls sitting there, went on for the innermosts..it was just making me feel like, jeez, not feeling good, that's it..haha.. coz we talked about stuffs..which is close to the future..karma..yeah.. that's unbelievable, isnt it??
i got back at around 9.30pm.. and something really happened.. for your information, something actually happened before this, which im quite aware of, the former happening (haha!!) was like..haha..crappy for me (asking for my number-lah).. nah i'm all confused now.. hopefully it'll reach a conclusion soon, i mean the latter one.. hehe, i really dont know what i want.. just ignore this part if you dont get it.. i only wish to voice it out.. BUT! if u do get it, any opinions are welcome, but mostly for those i've told.. the closer ones..and the one who's involved.. haha..
Monday, June 06, 2005
Words
what day is today? monday, i see. absolutely june i know.
it seems that i havent been feeding my bloggie for quite some time, i do check on it though.. just feel like bringing my blog alive again, so here i am typing word by word and not knowing what i should write... anybody misses me?? hehe, well i've been going out like nobody's business. on the other hand, my tasks are piling up like nobody's business as well.. woohoo guess i should just pick up the pieces and you know what i am gonna do.. but will i? tripping on words, i dont know what's happened to me.. argh!!
few more months to my examinations, tough ones.. i dont dare walk out the door when school reopens, really dont.. standing on the doorway, feel like stepping back.. somehow i know things happen just as it will be..
hey sarah.. sarah.. whatever will be, will be~~
i always have this verse in mind. it keeps me going.. com'on carmen!! should change the lyrics.. and sing in front of the mirror.. guess that suits better eh??
it seems that i havent been feeding my bloggie for quite some time, i do check on it though.. just feel like bringing my blog alive again, so here i am typing word by word and not knowing what i should write... anybody misses me?? hehe, well i've been going out like nobody's business. on the other hand, my tasks are piling up like nobody's business as well.. woohoo guess i should just pick up the pieces and you know what i am gonna do.. but will i? tripping on words, i dont know what's happened to me.. argh!!
few more months to my examinations, tough ones.. i dont dare walk out the door when school reopens, really dont.. standing on the doorway, feel like stepping back.. somehow i know things happen just as it will be..
hey sarah.. sarah.. whatever will be, will be~~
i always have this verse in mind. it keeps me going.. com'on carmen!! should change the lyrics.. and sing in front of the mirror.. guess that suits better eh??
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