Craving For You

aww man, the exam finally started today, how i loong for today to arrive. dont you feel weird bout it, after this 2weeks' nightmare or shud i say sweetdreamland, i will have my own excessively wholesome hours to compete and too, i cant wait for it. yet if i really wanna talk about it, there's really nothing much i'll do except hanging out with peeps or studying at home, humorous huh, so you think i'll study?.. i'm kind of speechless at this moment. but somehow time changes, all right? i might be the one who nerd for hours each day, who knows? well, i find it inconceivable as well, what more to expect from the one who's reading this to believe or even have a petty thought of it. kekke, but hey, i will really nerd, for at least this year i guess. it all just depends, on my mood.

there are still 2weeks ahead, how am i gonna struggle through it without your support? please guide me and give a little bit of generosity; hint me some ways to get you. i am totally out of the being initiative kind, so dont put hopes on me. but i really do need you. this is true. LOL. you are the AIR that i breathe, you should really know... hehhe, hang on, dont expect anyone of you to be as important as it described as, you arent! lolz, just joking~

if you know me well and of course reads well with goodie eyesight, you might guess the one who has the force to be in my mind for so long and indeed, stand a very important position.

peace out.

Born to Try

it's in the middle of the chinese new year. i should be very excited but apparently, im not. it's not about stuff which involves gambling or money; it's totally nothing to do with that. i did a personality test few minutes ago, which i have done last year but didnt know the purpose of doing it over again just now; i was oblivious to the fact that it had to say about me last year, not until just now.

perhaps it's about the timing. i started to think deeply. friends i have a whole bunch but when it comes to soulmate, i think i have.. not to say none. perhaps subconsciously i really keep big problems to myself and if you are going to ask me, i have no idea is what i'll have for the question you ask. i dont like to burden people and i dont like others to worry things with me as well. it's not right i guess but i find it hard to open my heart and worse still when it comes to secret between me and another person, who cares if it's a he or she, i really am not going to tell. a lot of people confide in me but why cant i confide in them, as in big problems? i am no cynical, it's not like that. i do have faith in people but it's darn hard to really tell it to someone. small things like guys, luxuries, lifestyles and so on, i do tell. and what you think i have left out, is actually what i am facing. go figure.

a person confided in me; very special person. this person touched me intensely. in the absence of touching or being touched, people of all ages can sicken or grow touch-starved. what do you think? anyway, that person asked me not to tell anyone, i guess i have to keep it to myself again. worse still, it's somehow something slightly related to me. others' problems i like to hear and give my opinions on but, you know life's like that, it's easier to be said than done; when it really happens to you, you really not gonna do what you should do. sigh, i dont know how.

perhaps i am born to try it on my own. keeping big things to ourselves, do you agree?

Dreams

woke up from my sweet nap few minutes ago, i have discovered something. i dont think it's unique enough for me to post a blog on it, but still there's something always urges me to blog about it. something i feel about dreams.

i had a great time napping on my sofa. believe it or not, that place was and indeed, is the coolest place to take nap, not even my bed; my bed will only function well when it's bedtime. the sofa is placed right under the spinning-fan, how cool. i am never gonna go ahead writing about the ambience due to the temptation of it. aww, i feel like napping again.

back to the topic, what is it again? hehe, yeah dreams. i had a few dreams in just a mere two or three hours' nap. it all went well, not until i got to this that i actually feel that whenever we're having dreams or so, we have the right to stop it. yea, that's our prerogatives. well, i sometimes have this bovine stupidity to having a flying dreams, which is a dream that actually scares me and i will always want to get away from it. it is just too strong at times and i cant escape. it is gravely nerve-racking and intimidating most of the time. i was scared, dreadfully. again.

dreams can be wonderful and yet it can be horrifying. apart from the dreams i am referring to, there are still the solid dreams we make along our way. those are our motivations, i guess. everybody dreams. theorectical dreams make a flashback for some particular people whereas the solid dreams are what we can have our control on. it all depends.

remember, dreams may vary. of course, it's up to you. we can never have the same dream twice, in which we can be told by anonymous; we can never cross the same river. therefore, treasure every moments we share with others, including our foes'.

ditto the greetings.

Break!

today's the first day of my break due to the ding-dong festival, chinese new year. hehe, should you ask me how my feeling flows, i think i'll most probably tell you, well nothing much, just sort of excited to have a short break after these few weeks of struggles. it's awesome to be waking up late again. hehe, speaking of it though, i cant really sleep until afternoon, hehe, not suggesting it's a good habit though. it's just weird that i can no longer sleep that looong. is this a good sign?

once i look up, i see my calender. it reminds me of the examination that's approaching toward this lazy mind i'm gifted, feel bad now. hehe, perhaps someone who reads this will assume me of having mood swings, hehhe, i am not. just feeling lazy again, argh, my procrastination chases after me again, please leave me. it's human nature i guess, we can do nothing and we shall just leave it and let it be. this tedious chasing-after does no harm on me!

looking to my left, kekke kii..kii Kisses are on my sight. i grabbed it and ate it. ahha, it's the Hershey's Kisses. what a melting chocolate; melts my heart to the sweetest territory, at the moment.

anyways, merry chinese new year everyone!