stand still, look prettay

should be a great week for me. perhaps it is. indeed. i kinda felt it few days ago, but you know, im sorta emotional or rather, sentimental..so i cant help but feeling subsided. now that i recall, a lot of good things did happen on me. ha, how implausible a chuckle. well, how should i mention.. i was announced and crowned the president of the financial club in my school. i should be so lucky, cuz being a transfer-student, what can i expect more, right? and then, on the same day, i was gifted a silver key to the pussycat doll's world tour with some idiotics (lol..u guys wont mind, will ya? lol), didnt really know what sorta wolrd tour, 2006 world tour? happy tour? lol, whatsoever the good names you would wanna call this tour to be, i felt awesome once i got there, you know the ambience and the people over there were just astonishing! they're all crazy head! well, anticipated from the fans of the sweetie babes. to come clean though, im not really into the PCD, well, no offence, i know you're understanding..i went there just to have my body standing on the sands rather than the soul, then again, that was what i thought i'd be. despite the fact that once the dolls showed up, i was lighten up. forgetting reshmonu, im sorry cuz this is the second damn time watching his performance; first was when r&b queen, alicia keys came along.. i dont wanna mention this but he is really a turn-off. i must admit. well, back to the dollies, i guess i can only remember one of the bandmates' name, nicole schweizger..lol..something like that..am not really sure of the fam's name..lol. all right, she's damn catchy, and amazing voice..cool! and she's da bomb!

okie dokie, here i go again, been to another concert, this time around was with family..so expected to be a soothing one eh..duh~ emil chau and victor wong..maybe i should reveal a little, emil gave me a peck on the cheek when i was young, ah 5 or 6? heek, i was too adorable..lol this concert brought me nostalgia and reminiscence. i have nothing more to elaborate on, though.. alright, put it this way, mom was excited.. and real turned on with emil's cordial voice..hehe that's about it..well the firecrackers were brought out enormously.. i stood still watching, like jaws opened..lol..blush wey..

for now, im lazy hehe..if you'd excuse me, stay tuned.
to be c'tnd.
or not. =p

Where's my cashload??

early in the morning, i heard some shouts from down..so i tried eavesdropping, Not to my surprise though, it was a smaaall fight between my lil bro and my dad, sigh my brotha is still behaving like a small kiddo man, wondering when he would transform himself into a better person..well or rather be good. i've talked to him nth times about how he shouldnt do this or that, though it was to no avail, oh so blatant..like im obsessed with pestering him..oh so not true..just when i was about to check out my wallet to reach out a few dollars to spare, i find myself running outta cash..gawd, i've not been spending and where the heck the money has gone?? well, i think i'm quite thrifty at times, that says i would have money in my purse. heck! u heard it, at times...hehehhe..oh my gawddd..i cant imagine myself without money..how am i gonna survive..i dont feel like goin to the atm machine n bla bla..get it from dad? this is so not gonna happen!! o'dear, the last choice is still dishing it out from the freaking atm machine..there's this school function at another school tonight, guess i have to at least spare myself some time, so to speak. dressing up nicely? haha, you will see!! well im not gonna bring my cam though, after all the incidents, i lost my confidence..haha..dont think i can bear the post-mortem..lol funny cuz i cant picture when the snatch thief just grab it like that..phewww!!! and then i'm so gonna be screwed!! intellectually analysed, conclusion is still not bringing the cam! lol.

gawd, im so wanting in ca$h at the moment..show me miracle baby!!(like it's gonna happen)

Personality Type

Your #1 Match: INFP

The Idealist You are creative with a great imagination, living in your own inner world.Open minded and accepting, you strive for harmony in your important relationships.It takes a long time for people to get to know you. You are hesitant to let people get close. But once you care for someone, you do everything you can to help them grow and develop. You would make an excellent writer, psychologist, or artist.

What's" Your Personality Type?

I

oh my..seeems like ant has misunderstood me but it's all right..least i know there are actually someone who cares...right..nothing much happened today..pretty much the same ole routine..nothing to be pissed of and yet nothing to be happy about..just a day, there it goes. fine, you wouldnt know what im hoping for; im actually expecting a blessing in disguise..hahaha..sounds funny but realistic indeed. i guess for me, that's gotta be a one-eighty turning point, well then only it can be categorised as amazing.. what's the time now babe, okay it's night-time, but i havent had my hands on my homework, ever since i reached home. books still remain virgin, untouched. somehow gotta go check 'em out later..just spare me some time man, procrastination has gotten under my skin..

I

the same ole feelings gets in the way again.. can i not get over it? why must you make it so difficult for me? like my life isnt hard enough to hold on to..i dont intend to complain about life, perhaps i would never feel like it but i just cannot be like one simple-minded person; accept everything that comes. i would try, not in an instant though. what does the future hold for me? noone ever has the answer, right so im just crapping now..i dread to complete my tasks..its like i have lost interests in almost all of the things..apart from eating..though i have to watch my weight. you see i just cant let myself out, completely.. whatever i do, it'll just stuck halfway, that's it. my life could be a hassle, but i dont want it to be. i want to enjoy my life but nothing pops out. i have run outta idea of what to do to make my life more worthwhile, you know some might be asking why must i be so angry with who i am today. let me just come clean, i do not have a reason to be angry with God, cuz i have not done anything that is worth debating, yet. have i turned into one adult now? do i play the same part? did everyone of them go through the same thing? i know i should be happy with what i have now, i do appreciate 'em. people say tomorrow will be a better day, by all means today's a good day. i know i can make it, just hoping i could find better days..

I

i know i should not be thinking - the negative side of the world, but that it just plunges into my freaking mind. i have heck no control of it. totally. one point, i dont know what i want in life though sometimes asking too much or rather, hoping too much...and speculate too much, like you said to me before..man i really miss those days when i was still a naive young kiddo...to some people, carmen is still am, but have u ever known she's collapsed long since? it has got nothing to do with anyone or anything, but this girl just wants to wonder.. perhaps thinking too much.. and that says life is too unfair..or to make it fair, she will never be satisfied. in dilemma.

i've stepped out in a wrong way, perhaps to some its not but living in a materialistic world, or whatever you call it pragmatic world, you can never live with only one track mind..there are pros and cons anyway..so i guess i've done wrong..i can not even forgive myself.. i feel like walking away from it but so far as i know, im just so not happy with this mistake. religion taught us to accept things and not to be angry with things that have happened, i guess i agree with that, partly..im learning my dear.. hopefully i could turn out to be someone like that, well then what noble person i am..

i think..

will i sink or swim?