Those Days are Gone

i must have had alot of things swallowed before i started chewing.. it hurts now, cause i choked.. badly..

i never did appreciate the bad times i have had with anyone, i thought it should and ought to be forgotten..but now, i think it absolutely have to be kept as remembrance...once it's gone, there's no turning back.. even the bad days..

even if you're halfway in a conversation with someone u hate, trust me.. you'll miss it someday..at least u guys have had things to quarrel and fight over.. come to think of it, so wht's the purpose of keeping 2 good friends together if there's not much topics to linger on.. you see even the foes could have the chance to get in touch to themselves..

i missed those days..

which is much worse when it's someone you truly care about.. someone u used to chew gums for a few hours..and yet still having a conversation goin on..aint it miraculous? things will never be the same again when time comes because blatantly time can change someone else's life.. just everything... it just slips off your head without your knowledge.. here we are, sitting on the same table, having nothing much to gossip or so.. it's like a sword is right there in between the two of you, awaiting the conquerer to sweep off the dirt and bridge the gap behind the walls..

i could never relive those days..

i'm not the only one living this complicated and totally messed up place.. friends are everywhere.. but is wearing a mask to communicate with them necessary? unfortunately it does.. subsequently love is all around us.. so basically life is unpredictable.. perhaps saturated with hidden tricks of dark lies..

this is a lie..

darlin, tell me what's in the air right now? i have tried my best to help but despite my helpless stupidity, i turned the other way and messed up the Whole... (hint: inspired by John Steinback's The Pearl, a beautiful novel.)

thanks for the love that i have had and still owning it. i miss my late grandma now, suddenly. are you watching us from up above?



Love, i appreciate. Someone's watching over me, anytime and everywhere. Kisses from me. Lonely no more..