its so hard to face walking home alone. when there's no one at home expecting you back, gravely you dread to reach home that soon. therefore i will always find myself end up taking bus home. it is not because its cheaper but it takes longer time to reach home. ridiculous isnt it, in fact, taking bus home is more expensive than takin the subway. i treasure long excursions. yes i do.
as usual as it is, i went for carls jr for a hearty breakfast. yes i knw they always come in large portions but i dont care. as long as im happy, right? i do have friends here.. i cant comprehend why i should feel this way but i really miss home. even if im home alone i will never find myself being lonely. i was always as busy as bee, living that kinda hustle and bustle way of life. in comparison food from home is always better but in other regards things down here in singapore are undoubtly more audacious and interesting.
its just very difficult for me to trace back that state of grace in me anymore. very difficult. i didnt treasure the life i used to have; the hectic life i was leading. i have always been making complaints to the alter ego about how others are having the time of their lives but im not. perhaps its just those days again whereby this kinda feeling is hitting on me again. Geez!
Aaaaanyway, after the breakfast i went home straight. the unusual me, i didnt doze off once i got on the bus. in fact, i was wide awake, yes after the looong night, i was still energetic and as i passed by orchard road, i was thinkin to myself if i should hop off the bus. you knw, doing the thang girls do. yet i didnt. i was just being a real slacker at that point of time. oh well, not exactly, cuz i got a date late evening and i knew if i had gone down, i wouldnt have enough rest. so there, i surrendered to the daylight.
Got home and took my long shower. Coping with stress, i slept and woke up for dinner with my friend at NewYorkNewYork. shoud you have interest, check it out here cuz i didnt feel like taking pictures of food today. anyhow, it was awesome and the waffle was mouth-watering. very good experience there, thumbs up especially for the ambience and the music!
i realise so much has changed whereby i try to do so much but nothing seems to go my way. evrything backfired; still does. shall i give up? or should i carry on striving/struggling? or will i understand?
i gave and give the best in me just so things would turn out well. there's just always a - [but] in a sentence and its NOT a good thing babe. love me or hate me, i beg to differ.
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