Comfort

again here, feeling so slack.. dont feel like moving you know..apparently i'm listening to westlife's album..for once i was their die-hard fan...for once, too, i thought their music were mediocre..right now, a lot of memories traced back from the olden days..actually i must not deny that they actually accompanied me throughout the days when i was having my ups and downs..

how i wish i could turn back the time..but no regrets in life..never will i let myself fall into a condition when everything is hopeless ever again..yeah..you got it right..i have actually gone through a period when the whole world just seemed so grey to me..everything was shattered so badly..i dreaded to stay on that place *trying not to use foul language* but i just couldnt help..it was a total loneliness..there were always someone who cared but you know, i kinda behaved in an ignorant way.. am really sorry for the ones who cared and thankful of course..

why do we have to face failures in life..why are there barricades ahead stopping me from reaching my goal...why cant i just lead a simple life...why does everyone being so ignorant..why do i not have a witty mind..why am i so dumb..why am i so unlucky...why why why and why!





the little voice in my head is telling me that there are always the good things in life..



will they ever walk out on me??

Heartstrong

out of the blue just feel like blogging again..surprisingly today is wednesday and it's kinda strange because ever since some time ago i refused to blog during weekdays or rather schooling days..let's just say today's special..nah..none special occasion in particular..perhaps my heart is taking me to a new direction, a new pathway and here i come, again!

i am getting rid of these blues... it would be the umpteenth time for me to saying that i am turning over a new leaf.. a reborn life and i'm still alive, thank god for this..an official reincarnation i hope and i want it deeply from the bottom of my heart..really..i yearn for my heart to be alive again...starting anew..because a new day has come!

my head's lost but i'm heartstrong!!

Broken

actually there's nothing much for me to blog about, i just wanna post something here..you can call it passion.. you know, me blogging my heart out..it's all true and genuine and real facts.. i would never lie to my own diary or whatever you call it.. i dont know why, i'm so numb..i'm so moody..things just dont go my way..everything is destined to be, i'll just have to face it and live my life to its fullest...i must pamper myself..who knows what's gonna happen to me in a second.. i might be gone.. i might be making my way to knock on this sort of paranormal door.. of course i will not think of doing some idiotic mistakes and you know what i mean..i have a lot more things that i have not accomplished yet.. a lot! somehow i feel extremely down-cast. i have no idea what stikes me but i know there's somehing wrong.. i just cant express it in words..only that kinda feeling..

there was this terrorist attack in london yesterday, i bet everyone has already heard of it, or rather, even saw the video online or the actual attack which was telecast live yesterday on tv.. i missed it and i'm feeling left out because everyone around me seem to have already watched it..

sometimes i just cant make it on my own..

Tasks

it's another week closer to Heaven.. with that pendulum swings second by second, my heart seems to skip another beat.. man it kinda pressures me..oh no, it does pressure me.. everybody is talking about the spm now, and i'm still nowhere to be found in this barren empty space i'm spinning.. anyone please stop me.. for your information, my addmaths tasks have already exceeded the due date man.. never will be done..sigh!!

i am a slacker but i seriously dont think i'm lazy.. am i? shit..