such a massive repulsion is conjuring up inside.. i feel so disgusted. i dont feel like talking to anyone else right now. not even myself. the only thing to do is to blast out loud music , well, rock ballads. its still peculiar, cuz i aint supposed to listen to any ballads for the moment, well maybe something to do with angst or hysteria..suits me more? argh! but im no angry, neither am i emotional.
*some days i feel like shit. i wanna quit. n' be normal for a bit.*
do i have to smile before i laugh? do i have to leap before i jump? do i have to swim before i drown? all these questions are meant not for scamps but could i fortify more of those, so i would be one sinner? hope not.
i doubt if everything i do is right. it just looks so wrong. i dont wanna do this no more. and to hell with it, no regrets in life? funny...not!! how could we? unless we're born not with the dream n the fickle mind to be more motivated. and to struggle, damnnit!! if someone is all under estimated, now you tell me? cuz i feel like a cow now, with nothing.
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enough of those. im actually fine cuz i know nothing's gonna be all right, even if i sit through with my inevitable agony. and yes carm, live with it! i dont need nobody to sympathise, i can handle it myself. life is ours and we do it our way! who else to blame, eh?
join me my Black Parade!!!
1 comment:
"Someday i feel like shit, i wanna quit. n' be normal for a bit"
-Where'd You GO--Fort Minor
I love that song.
"Where'd You go? I miss you so. Seems like it's been forever that you've been gone..."
BUt someday u will be back on you gawd dam lazy imaginative feet. Someday u will feel that all these angst or hysteria or the knowing of the unknown, the feeling of Lost in space, or the feeling of neglected will show that life is all about challenge. BUt at that time, You have overcome the obstacles, your mind developed, YES, DEveloped, and you won't feel that alone and lost anymore.
Hey Babe
Life Goes On.
try to do the best in your life, and you will have no regret!
Black Parade ehhh...hahha
=D
Take Care
Love ya.
*muaks2*
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