I am lost right now, having nothing done even the holiday has already started.
Lost in a way of regretting, I dont think I'm gonna do anything except being a couch potato later though. Lazy. What a horrible slacker i could be.
I have changed. Being more mature, I have experienced a lot of tough situation and am going through now. Wish things would go well soon.
Maturity...
Wednesday, August 25, 2004
Monday, August 23, 2004
Two in a Row
I had a meaningful weekend; last saturday and sunday. Really appreciate those who casted me with the golden opportunities; if those activities werent for them, i wouldnt have gone there.
I went to a play last saturday. Went there with my mates and my mom. A renowned actor, writer, director, a humourous performer and now owner of a quaint little book shop-Thor Kah Hoong. You might not heard of his name, but if you're one of The Star readers, you'll slightly know it. The play was Brickfields...Now & Then. It was a dramatized story of his childhood. I was quite aware of my mom's reaction before she sees the play, because she has never liked to go for plays; she went but I shall remain silence of the reason. The reason is never something bad okay? Phew. My mom turned out to be enjoying the play. Sighed. She mentioned that Thor's childhood was more or less the same as hers, maybe she felt a lil bit of intimation and a flashback of her childhood. I know now, the lifestyles of my parents' so-called 'good old days'.
I went to Nan Yang Newspaper consequtively on sunday. It was knowledgeably wonderful. It was sponsored by Taylor's College. Reasonably, there were lecturers and graduators from Taylor's College, telling us the advantages of the Mass Communication field. I used to have the thought of be a part of it, changed due to some reasons. Right now, I cant make up my mind. Ridiculous?
Later, there was a local singer's appearance, yuheng. Frankly, I didnt have any clues on her until I met her that day. Sorry and thanks to my friends, who really worked hard for the so-called gathering.
'I believe that entropy is the giver of life. Improvements always come at a price. There is a certain magical glow about your youth or childhood as it is a time where you have no adult responsibilities.' -Thor Kah Hoong, on why do people call it the 'good old days'.
Treasure your childhood. Make it unforgettable and profoundly expressive.
Brickfields...Now & Then
I went to a play last saturday. Went there with my mates and my mom. A renowned actor, writer, director, a humourous performer and now owner of a quaint little book shop-Thor Kah Hoong. You might not heard of his name, but if you're one of The Star readers, you'll slightly know it. The play was Brickfields...Now & Then. It was a dramatized story of his childhood. I was quite aware of my mom's reaction before she sees the play, because she has never liked to go for plays; she went but I shall remain silence of the reason. The reason is never something bad okay? Phew. My mom turned out to be enjoying the play. Sighed. She mentioned that Thor's childhood was more or less the same as hers, maybe she felt a lil bit of intimation and a flashback of her childhood. I know now, the lifestyles of my parents' so-called 'good old days'.
I went to Nan Yang Newspaper consequtively on sunday. It was knowledgeably wonderful. It was sponsored by Taylor's College. Reasonably, there were lecturers and graduators from Taylor's College, telling us the advantages of the Mass Communication field. I used to have the thought of be a part of it, changed due to some reasons. Right now, I cant make up my mind. Ridiculous?
Later, there was a local singer's appearance, yuheng. Frankly, I didnt have any clues on her until I met her that day. Sorry and thanks to my friends, who really worked hard for the so-called gathering.
'I believe that entropy is the giver of life. Improvements always come at a price. There is a certain magical glow about your youth or childhood as it is a time where you have no adult responsibilities.' -Thor Kah Hoong, on why do people call it the 'good old days'.
Treasure your childhood. Make it unforgettable and profoundly expressive.
Brickfields...Now & Then
Saturday, August 21, 2004
Suffering during holiday
It's holiday.
Unlike the previous holiday that I had, I have to do my homework and project. My homework are like virgin books, piling like a hill, all untouched!! That's the point. I was thinking if i could absent on the 30th August, coz the next day is Nasional day. And now, the thought is kinda spammed by my Add Maths teacher. He wants us to hand in the project on that day, otherwise whole class demerit 20 marks!!
This holiday is like nothing to me. Still have to do the homework whole day long. Look, how to relax when the tests are just around the corner. If u know me well, you'll surely get the thought that I actually wont have the time to do preparations. Hopefully, the carmen you've known for some time or years, will change.
The workload is huge. Tell me, how to have fun with the work? No answer for this question, because it's never going to be fun. Face the reality, face it carmen. It's life, you gotta live with it.
Holiday? I dont think so, seriously.
Unlike the previous holiday that I had, I have to do my homework and project. My homework are like virgin books, piling like a hill, all untouched!! That's the point. I was thinking if i could absent on the 30th August, coz the next day is Nasional day. And now, the thought is kinda spammed by my Add Maths teacher. He wants us to hand in the project on that day, otherwise whole class demerit 20 marks!!
This holiday is like nothing to me. Still have to do the homework whole day long. Look, how to relax when the tests are just around the corner. If u know me well, you'll surely get the thought that I actually wont have the time to do preparations. Hopefully, the carmen you've known for some time or years, will change.
The workload is huge. Tell me, how to have fun with the work? No answer for this question, because it's never going to be fun. Face the reality, face it carmen. It's life, you gotta live with it.
Holiday? I dont think so, seriously.
Monday, August 16, 2004
Blurry
I was having a nice nap, but I think that dream was a mess. I kinda remember what happened to my body and soul in the dream, but never hoped that to be happened in real life. The reality. Reality will overcome it.
Wake up from dreams are something dangerous, you'll never know whether the dream that you have just dreamt of will happen to you, sometimes you wish it would, of course. Put aside the thought at the moment, it's difficult and wake up! Wake up to reality, never looked back to the past; there are more interesting stuffs that worth your concern.
My dream was one thing really bad, wish it never happened. Gotta live through it, without fear. Come on.
Wake up from dreams are something dangerous, you'll never know whether the dream that you have just dreamt of will happen to you, sometimes you wish it would, of course. Put aside the thought at the moment, it's difficult and wake up! Wake up to reality, never looked back to the past; there are more interesting stuffs that worth your concern.
My dream was one thing really bad, wish it never happened. Gotta live through it, without fear. Come on.
Wednesday, August 11, 2004
Right Now
I dont know what I am going through now, and I dont know what I want all these years. Is it just a better result? There's no point when we struggle so hard all these years doing homework and revision and when we've grown up, all that you're doing right now is useless.
No one can predict the future, that's really true. No time wasting to hope for the better things to come to us, we gotta appreciate things happening to us, who knows if anything will happen to us in next few seconds.
I'm feeling numb. I'm coming back to no one every day, I feel so lonely. Everybody's busy doing their things. I have my own things to worry about too, just that maybe I've spent too much time thinking, and leads me to the wrong path. No one's there to correct it and point it out for me. I'm losing my way, hesitating. Friends do help, but not all the time, dude.
I'm tired of it.
No one can predict the future, that's really true. No time wasting to hope for the better things to come to us, we gotta appreciate things happening to us, who knows if anything will happen to us in next few seconds.
I'm feeling numb. I'm coming back to no one every day, I feel so lonely. Everybody's busy doing their things. I have my own things to worry about too, just that maybe I've spent too much time thinking, and leads me to the wrong path. No one's there to correct it and point it out for me. I'm losing my way, hesitating. Friends do help, but not all the time, dude.
I'm tired of it.
Monday, August 09, 2004
What about me? Part II
Here goes again:
Turn ons
Libra needs peace and harmony in all their relationship so help them maintain that. Venus the ruling planet gives them beauty and they have weakness for people who can compliment them about their beauty (you will not have to make an effort to do that anyway). You can help Libra seek union and partnership in life. If you have Libra partner you can be sure to share beautiful and pleasurable moments together.
Turn offs
Libra is kind and gentle soul but very argumentative. Hence do not start an argument or discussion unless of course you are free and do not know how to pass your time. They hate to lose and most probably in between of discussion they may change their side too (remember scales can tilt) and still continue arguing from other side. Do not push your Libra partner into making decisions. They will keep weighing pros and cons and may still not be able to come to any decision. Have patience!
Turn ons
Libra needs peace and harmony in all their relationship so help them maintain that. Venus the ruling planet gives them beauty and they have weakness for people who can compliment them about their beauty (you will not have to make an effort to do that anyway). You can help Libra seek union and partnership in life. If you have Libra partner you can be sure to share beautiful and pleasurable moments together.
Turn offs
Libra is kind and gentle soul but very argumentative. Hence do not start an argument or discussion unless of course you are free and do not know how to pass your time. They hate to lose and most probably in between of discussion they may change their side too (remember scales can tilt) and still continue arguing from other side. Do not push your Libra partner into making decisions. They will keep weighing pros and cons and may still not be able to come to any decision. Have patience!
Sunday, August 08, 2004
Dull
Wasted another saturday again.
Sitting by my desk, I wish to finish off my additional mathematic tasks just now. Failed again. I lifted my white flag to my darling and dived into it, my bed. It's my best accompany but it can cause a vigorous person to mutate into a lethargic person.
Sometimes I do things that I regret. I try hard to cover that particular thing although it doesnt affect me much and yet I fail to do it, sometimes. I find reasons for myself to make myself comfortable again. Time seems to play a trick on us. If you want something, it flows by or vice versa. I believe that's what that makes our life so interesting.
The worst is never over coz another worse thing is waiting for us everyday. I wake up in the mornings, look into the mirror, wonder what will happen next. Everything that I expected wont seem to be, it turns out to be another totally unexpected thing instead. I tell myself not to expect things as expected things will never happen. Obviously, I dont allow myself to expect the positive things; afraid the bad will come.I am extremely conscious that thinking this way is unhealthy, so no expectations for me.I do aim high for better achievement, this is better, you know, just aim.
Life is beautiful. Smile to the world and live with it, my pal.
Sitting by my desk, I wish to finish off my additional mathematic tasks just now. Failed again. I lifted my white flag to my darling and dived into it, my bed. It's my best accompany but it can cause a vigorous person to mutate into a lethargic person.
Sometimes I do things that I regret. I try hard to cover that particular thing although it doesnt affect me much and yet I fail to do it, sometimes. I find reasons for myself to make myself comfortable again. Time seems to play a trick on us. If you want something, it flows by or vice versa. I believe that's what that makes our life so interesting.
The worst is never over coz another worse thing is waiting for us everyday. I wake up in the mornings, look into the mirror, wonder what will happen next. Everything that I expected wont seem to be, it turns out to be another totally unexpected thing instead. I tell myself not to expect things as expected things will never happen. Obviously, I dont allow myself to expect the positive things; afraid the bad will come.I am extremely conscious that thinking this way is unhealthy, so no expectations for me.I do aim high for better achievement, this is better, you know, just aim.
Life is beautiful. Smile to the world and live with it, my pal.
Friday, August 06, 2004
What about me?
I saw something from the net just now and below are the things I have found to describe me. Do you guys think it's accurate or is it just crap? No fear, tell me straightout and be frank of course. No pressure, just honestly.
Here goes:
You are mysterious, never selfish and get interested in things easily. Your day can be sad or happy depending on your mood. You are popular between friends but you can act stupid at times, and forget things easily. You go for person that's trustworthy.
Cheers.
Here goes:
You are mysterious, never selfish and get interested in things easily. Your day can be sad or happy depending on your mood. You are popular between friends but you can act stupid at times, and forget things easily. You go for person that's trustworthy.
Cheers.
Wednesday, August 04, 2004
Misunderstanding vs Benevolence
I dont know what happened to me these days, always being misunderstood by someone. I mean, friends and teachers. I didnt happen to fightback, as in tell them the truth. Just let it be, they will understand me someday, I thought. As a student, it's better if we dont mess with the teachers. Dont you think so?
Everyone grows up with misunderstandings. I learnt a lot from those though. We've gotta give in to avoid arguments. Peace finds harmony.
"Magnanimous people have no vanity, they have no jealousy, they have no reserves, and they feed on the true and solid wherever they find it. And what is more, they find it everywhere." -Van Wyck Brooks
Everyone grows up with misunderstandings. I learnt a lot from those though. We've gotta give in to avoid arguments. Peace finds harmony.
"Magnanimous people have no vanity, they have no jealousy, they have no reserves, and they feed on the true and solid wherever they find it. And what is more, they find it everywhere." -Van Wyck Brooks
A Special Someone
Someone special guides me
Someone special teaches me
Someone special judges me
Someone special encourages me
Someone special nurtures me
Someone special mentors me
Someone special makes me smile
Someone special cracks me up
Someone special cries with me
Someone special confides in me
Someone special consoles me
Someone special grows with me
Someone special lends me a hand
Someone special goes out with me
Someone special won't abandon me
Someone special stays with me
Someone special walks beside me
The list is endless.
I dont mean to specify who that is, just anyone could be.
"Silence makes the real conversations between friends. Not the saying, but the never needing to say is what counts." -Margaret Lee Runbeck
I've always believed in that quotation, because I have found mine and am hoping to be given more in the future ahead.
A special friend.
A special pouch of mine filled with stones.
Someone special teaches me
Someone special judges me
Someone special encourages me
Someone special nurtures me
Someone special mentors me
Someone special makes me smile
Someone special cracks me up
Someone special cries with me
Someone special confides in me
Someone special consoles me
Someone special grows with me
Someone special lends me a hand
Someone special goes out with me
Someone special won't abandon me
Someone special stays with me
Someone special walks beside me
The list is endless.
I dont mean to specify who that is, just anyone could be.
"Silence makes the real conversations between friends. Not the saying, but the never needing to say is what counts." -Margaret Lee Runbeck
I've always believed in that quotation, because I have found mine and am hoping to be given more in the future ahead.
A special friend.
A special pouch of mine filled with stones.
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