Given chances

it's good to see people of my age who can actually compose their own song and perform it. how i wish i could be one.

a friend of mine sent me a track that he and his friends composed themselves yesterday. i tried listen to it; although it wasnt a clear track but i can feel their determination working hard on it and it wasnt that bad actually. it's a nice song yeah. ridiculously, that song even woke my brother up. *lolz* the title of the song is nothing lasts forever. well, good try!! i tried listening to the lyrics of that song but let's just blame the mp3 player. sigh. *sniff*

i did write out some lyrics years back but i have thrown it all away. never know the reasons why i did that, it was indeed right from my heart but i just feel that those were you know, some kind of immature thoughts. only a few close friends got to share those craps, not even my family members. it's not that i dont share with them but you know, you have your inside worlds in different aspects. you have your inner thoughts for sure. not anyone in this world can share all of the secrets with you. for instance, certain people you'll tell them certain secrets but just not all of them. human beings are born like that i reckon, dont ask me why. there are always some secrets that we keep from other people, even it's the someone you share everything with, it's just that natural.

in recent times, i'm self-learning the guitar. things didnt work out the way i expected. i will not lift up the white flag though. not as soon. i must never give up on doing anything else. work it!! i can do it!! i need some kind of self-actualization i guess. can anybody please tell me that. playing guitar, yes or no?

so natural. blur.